Dear Sage, October was another fun month. We are so blessed to have a baby girl who can travel anywhere and is always up for a good time. You are a handful and the first 6 months of two had it challenges, but we love you more than anything. I have now come to realize that Mommy’s lack of parenting skills definitely contributed to our struggles. But we have since worked through them and I am happy to report we are both doing much better! Enjoy your pics and video. You are the life of the party!
Dear Sage in pictures and video. 2 years 5 months.
September 2014 was a big month! It was quite a challenge narrowing down all the great pictures from our trip. We love adventuring with you Sageypoo!

This is your preferred way of helping Daddy eat breakfast. You do this in our kitchen at home too. You are always climbing something.
Press play to see the video clips from September 2014
Dear Sage 2 Years and 4 months. August 2014
Dear Sage, here are your pictures and video from August 2014! This month we spent a lot of time in the ocean and in the pool. Then we went on a 5 day backpacking trip and a 3 week road trip to Oregon and back. Tons of great pictures ahead and even better video footage of all our outdoor time! We love you little peanut.
Dear Sage, 2 years 3 months July 2014
Dear sage 2 years. (This first paragraph is the blog post I started when you were 24 months old. I never finished it.) All in about 15 seconds, Sage wailed “NO!” in my face, arched her back, screamed, tears poured down her cheeks and then she tried to hit me. Next in a complete 180, she threw her arms around my neck and said, “I love you mamma.” Umm…welcome to the twos??? (This next paragraph is what I wrote when you were 27 months old. July 2014) These last 3 months since you turned two are the host of my first real struggles as a mother. I haven’t written your 2 year old blog post yet because I was sincerely afraid that I would sit down to write and have nothing nice to say. Daddy encouraged me to just write what I felt and that if you ever read this as an older child we would help you understand the complexities of Motherhood. So here is how I felt July 2014. I used to love my daughter. She was magical, buttery, perfection in every way. Her baby gurgles, her plump cheeks, and her tiny little toes. I loved her with so much passion I could barely contain the intensity. I loved her wordless fits at 15months old over wanting to ride the escalator one more time. I loved the mess she made of herself when trying to get a handful of sweet potatoes in her mouth. I loved watching her strut around with the confidence of a new walker. I loved every little movement, tantrum, new word, and expression. My patience rivaled Mother Teresa. Then she turned two. And I stopped loving my daughter. Day breaks with a smack in the face. Followed by the gentle holding of her hand while I say, “Mommy will not let you hit.” I release her hand and the catapult releases another more powerful smack in the face. Our morning continues with wanting eggs and then not wanting eggs. “Please give me food mommy” turns into an upside down plate on the floor with rays of scrambled eggs shooting in every direction. Underwear must go on backwards, she screams that she can put her tank top on herself (she can’t). Then she screams about that. She wants to wear my thong to the grocery store. I don’t let her. She screams. Putting my sweet baby girl in her car seat has become what I imagine takes place when trying to restrain a rabid raccoon with a buckle. “Mommy don’t drive,” “Sagey do it,” “NO carseat,” “Sagey drive,” “Dolly goes in car seat not Sagey,” “I need a blanket.” Mix in a few kicks and punches and you get the picture. The rose colored lens has started oozing dragon warts and green slime. When I was dreaming for my baby, this is not what I signed up for. I follow the trendy parenting blogs. I read until my eyes cross. I call my psychologist best friend and welcome her tips and insight. I am doing everything right. We don’t watch TV, she eats organic food, I have miraculously come up with a million different things to say in replace of the word, “no.” There isn’t one toy in my house that makes noise. She paints, climbs, swims, runs…I offer two choices every time I need her to do something. I am doing everything right yet somehow everything is turning out wrong. She’s a monster. Yes of course I have heard of the terrible twos. Yes I get it, it’s hard. But this? This is not hard. It’s torture. It’s day in and day out of nails on a chalk board, swallowing fiery coals, ripping our your fingernails torture. I would sign up for a half-ironman a week to replace this emotional nightmare. I am told it passes. I am told that thanks to all my hard work her teachers will love her. This is the grind, this is what makes a fabulous middle schooler. My thoughts? This is bullshit. She’s two and I stopped loving my daughter. So there you have it. My feelings out there for you to read. Clearly, that was a low point. Almost immediately after writing that narrative, I started doing a lot of yoga. It helped. Within a week or two just around the beginning of August (your 28th month) I turned a corner, you turned a corner and we quickly got back on track. You are again the adorable, melt-my-heart, cuddly, sweet, rosy cheeked, angel that I love so much. You are also hilarious. You’re talking so much and the things you say constantly make me burst out laughing. Despite how frustrated I was with you I did manage to write down some favorite Sage-is-two moments:
- You call Trader Joes “Dodda Does” and we cannot leave there without you asking the cashier for stickers which you then proceed to stick all over your legs.
- You LOVE singing “the wheels on the bus” and you have many different renditions. Mamma says, “I love you shh shhh.” Daddy says, “I love you,” Gigi “cooks me food.”
- You love singing the goodbye song from swimming class. “Goodbye Sagey, goodbye Sagey, goodbye Sagey, See you again next time.” You have made me sing this for what feels like hours. Saying goodbye to every single person and animal you know.
- You sometimes call us by our first names which is hilarious. “Hey Liiiiiiiz!” It goes up and then down like a doorbell. “Hey Petah!”
- You are still really into climbing. When we get on the elevator at the gym you walk your feet up the wall and hang upside down from the handrail. People look at me like I am crazy for letting you do it.
- You are fine getting dropped off at gym daycare because you love going there to take care of the baby dolls.
- You adore babies of all kind. Real and pretend. You love talking about them, looking at them, taking care of them.
- You love pretending to cook. Sometimes I think we need to get you a lot more toy food and a pretend refrigerator. Maybe for Christmas.
- You love broccoli. And, to add to that point you are a great eater. You will eat almost anything.
- You are skinny, wiry, but strong. You can pull up and hang from anything and enjoy getting yourself into interesting balancing positions between two stationary objects.
- (May)You are still nervous in and around the Ocean. We are working on that by taking you surfing and we think you are slowly improving. On the way to the beach you tell us how much you don’t like the beach and that you do not want to go surfing. Once you are out there though you love it. Then it comes time to catch a wave. You start crying as Daddy paddles for it but once you are up and cruising along you are fine again. We are hoping that making this a regular outing will help you get more happy and comfortable
- (May) We started swimming lessons and at first you were very unhappy about going underwater. Then we got you some goggles and everything changed. You love it and can even swim a little underwater by yourself between Daddy and me.
- At some point you actually said, “Mommy go away and clean the kitchen”
- The other day you said to me, “mommy no talk. Sage talk to everyone.”
- You call granola “mugga mugga”
- Strawberries are “bobelez”
- Tomatoes are “mel-uh-lulus”
- Oatmeal is “opa-meal”
- One meal you ate and loved was rosemary bread with tomato, avocado, and lemon pepper
- We never make special meals just for you. You eat everything we eat. You don’t really have a favorite food
- Eating most often gets in the way of your playtime and is an inconvenience.
- You like to put your hand out like you are a stop sign and say, “Mommy DO NOT.”
- As of July 27th you can count to 14
- (August) You know your left and right. This one completely baffles me but you do. We keep testing this with the presumption that you are just getting lucky but you get it correct every time.
- When I try to take a bite of your food you sometimes say, “Get your own.”
- You often say, “You’ve got to do that!” or We’ve got to do that!”
- My very favorite Sageism is the most recent, “Let’s sit on this rock and take a deep breath.”
Dear Sage 2 years and 3 months in Pictures and Video
Dear Sage, here are the pictures and video of your 27th month. July 2014!


Heading into the Wild Animal Park. Granny’s cousin Karey was in town so we all met at the park for the day!

On our way to Santa Rosa for Vineman 2014 we spent the night at the Kubischtas. Here you are with Avery!

You were a little freaked out by the Kubischta chickens but I thought it was funny that this one came right up to the door like it wanted to come inside.

When we arrived in Santa Rosa we went to visit your Daddy’s Aunt Nancy. This is a beautiful wood sculpture she has in her yard.




The Kubischtas came to visit us for the 4th of July. It was so fun having everyone stay at our house!


Bite marks from you. Evidence of the terrible twos

Dear Sage at 2 yrs & 2 months in Pictures and Video
Here are all the pictures and video from June 2014. You are 2 years and 2 months old. Love you Sagey!

You and Granny went on a walk in San Juan. I love this picture because you look like a little gypsy child.

eating sugar straight from the jar. Mommy didn’t know this was happening but it was so cute I had to take a picture.
Dear Sage 2 yrs 1 month in Pictures and Video
Dear Sage, here all the pictures and videos from May of 2014! You are 2 years and 1 month old.

dinner silliness 1

dinner silliness 2

dinner silliness 3

Biking to San Diego for Mother’s Day weekend

Taking a play break at the McDonalds in Camp Pendleton.

We made it to the hotel!

going on a run Mother’s Day morning

Granny surprised us for breakfast!

Mother’s Day fun

waiting for the train in San Diego
Dear Sage 24 months in Pictures
Here are the best pictures from your 24th month. You are 2 years old!
Dear Sage at 23 months
This week a year ago we were in Maui watching you, holding our breaths, as you mastered the art of walking. Those moments seem like yesterday yet here we are one year later…watching you, listening to you, holding our breaths as you master the art of talking. Each month I think, “how could she talk more?” And then you do. Your talking accelerates at the speed of light. Three or four times a day Your Daddy and I stop, look at each other in amazement and say, “did you hear what she just said?!” You recently said your longest sentence of 8 whole words: “Sagey eat a bar on the bike ride” only to beat it the next day with 10.
And it’s not just to us that you like to talk. The concept of stranger means little to you. You reach out and ask strangers to hold your hand, you bellow commands at people-“hike up!” “come down” “on bus, lady!” Your Daddy and I find each other’s eyes and shake our heads with laughter. How are you so comfortable with the many strangers who cross your path? I adore this quality, it glows with beauty. At times though… it can be awkward. Especially the time when you didn’t want to let go of the lady’s hand you held while exiting the bus. “Come lady” you gently said as we parted in opposite directions. As she said goodbye and turned to walk away you arched your back in my arms and let out a wailing cry.
You are loud. In restaurants, on the Zion bus, on hikes… you yell and sing. You are without question an extrovert. You scan the world like it’s yours for the taking. And it is. You are passionate and loving. You throw your arms around my neck and I wish you would never let go. I don’t know how many times I have said this before, but I will say it again: you are a natural climber. If there is a hand rail, a restaurant booth, a bar stool… you are climbing it. And now have started hanging upside-down!
As your talking continues to quickly develop you have stopped some of my most cherished baby-isms. No longer are your final “n” consonants ending with the letter m, like “rum” for “run.” You have also stopped calling your Granny “nanny.” Now it’s just “Granny.” The other day, you tried referring to breast milk as “milk” and I promptly, corrected you. “Neh, Sage” not “Milk.”
My heart aches when I catch you leaving your baby talk behind. For this purpose I will now refer to milk as “neh” and water as “babbie” for as long as possible. Oh yes and strawberries as “bob-eh-lez.”
This month Noah turned two. After buying his birthday present, you did the most wonderful role play in the car. As I was trying to put you in your car seat you said,
“No mama. Mama sit.”
“You want me to sit in YOUR car seat?”
“Yes Mama”
“But Mama is too big. Can Mama just sit right here next to your car seat?”
“Yes Mama. Stay Mama”
I sat next to your car seat and watched you clamber over the center console and into the driver’s seat. You stood up, turned around, looked at me from around the headrest and said, “Beat belt pease!” I buckled my seatbelt, you handed me a pacifier and my water bottle, and asked for the keys. You topped it off by sticking the keys in the ignition and almost successfully putting the drivers seatbelt on. Finally you said, “mommy help beat belt”
You recognize all the places we go… When we drive by Vons you say, “Daddy Juice, Sagey pouch.” When we drive on San Juan Creek Road you say, “Home Depot!” When we are driving across the Ortega Bridge you switch between asking if we are going to Noah’s House or Gigi’s house. You have got San Juan Capistrano down kid! No one will get lost with you in the car!
Your favorite song is still “Baby Mine” you ask for me to sing it every night before bed. You also request “Rock-a-bye Baby Sage” which is my rendition of “Sweet Baby James” You have started singing more and more on your own and it’s my favorite sound to hear. I hope you keep it up. You have the sweetest little voice.
You amaze me with your desire for order. You continue to put things back where they go and remember what goes where. We were in your bedroom and there was a clean diaper on your chair. You noticed it was out of place, picked it up, and put it in the diaper drawer.
I should also mention that you still do not watch any television. I am happy encouraging your independent play and trust that you will be more imaginative and resourceful because of it. Sometimes when you get extra whiney I think it would be great to put on a show for you but then I remember that it’s those times when you need to be bored so you are pushed to be creative and solve issues of boredom on your own. We push through those difficult times and eventually you do find something interesting to entertain you. We love that you don’t watch TV and have no intention of starting. We’ll see how long this lasts.
The tug and pull between the adult you would like to be and the toddler you are is overwhelmingly cute. There is nothing better in the world than being your Mommy. Every single day when I look into your chocolate brown eyes, at your beautiful, quirky little face, my lungs fill with deep breaths of unfiltered gratitude. My love follows you wherever you go little one. You have my whole heart. Forever.
Dear Sage at 22 months
There is an echo in our home. Sage you have become a world-class parrot! This is wonderful, funny, and mortifying all at the same time! Wonderful when you say, “almost there!” on our way to Gigi’s house in the morning, “Time to get up!” when we are getting out of bed, “Too big!” when you ask me to get inside your little wooden shopping cart, “oh pay goo goo” after I say, “Oh my goodness!” and “I don’t know” when I ask you where your pacifier is. Mortifying when you repeat my cursing response to dropping the mail all over the floor of the garage. Realizing the powerful impact of my choices and language is also a little mortifying. Your Dad and I are modeling for you every second of every day and I am aware it will most likely determine the kind of person you will become. It feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders but now is the time for us to become the best people we can be. Especially in regards to how we treat each other. You are our greatest motivation and we are working our hardest to be mindful of all we do.
This month was host to my first experience in trying to explain gender differences and the challenges that accompany those differences. We were at the playground and you saw a little boy run off to the bushes, pull down his pants, and pee. You immediately decided that you wanted to do the same thing. My initial response was, “Sage, I see that you want to pee like that little boy but girls don’t pee in the bushes at playgrounds. Girls need to use the bathroom.” As soon as the words left my mouth I wanted to swallow them back in and let you pull down your pants and pee. Why shouldn’t you pee in the bushes at the playground?! Why would I say such a ridiculous thing?! If I do decide that I don’t want you to pee in the bushes at a playground, I need to be sure it’s NOT because you are a girl. I promise to never use “because you are a girl you can’t….” again.
Here are a few other highlights from this month:
• I noticed that you stopped using handrails when walking down stairs. Funny these little things that are so small yet so big at the same time. You are so little and you march down the stairs with so much confidence.
• You have also started noticing stop signs. It’s makes me smile when you see them, throw your hand out, and yell, “STOP!”
• Every word that ends with the letter “n” you have replaced with the letter “m”. “All done” is “all dum.” “Bean” is “beam.” “Run” is “rum”. It’s so cute when we are exercising and you say, “RUM MAMMA RUM!”
• You have started saying, “I love you.” You say, “La La”
• You have developed a great sense of direction. We were driving near Nektar juice bar, which we had only visited once, and you yelled, “JUICE PLACE!” Even writing about it makes me laugh. You know the streets that lead to the places we go. Noah’s house, Gigi’s house, our house, etc.
• You have started pretending that you have just met me and you say, “Hi Mamma, Meet you Mamma!” You are trying to say, “Nice to meet you Mamma”
• You love hearing stories about your piggies (toes). They go on all kinds of adventures and you like to say that each one goes to the market. We ask you what they buy at the market and you say, “quesadilla” or “cheese”.
• I love watching you try and do things on your own. Like rolling up your sleeves before you wash your hands, using the swifer to “vaccum” the house, put your clothes on yourself, open the fridge to find the ingredients for a quesadilla (the tortillas and cheese are in the vegetable bins so they are just your height!), velcro your shoes, put toothpaste on your toothbrush, snap yourself into your carseat… You very clearly communicate your displeasure when I start doing these things for you and strongly say, “No Mamma!” You have even started trying to do my routines for me. You like to scoop my coffee beans into the coffee grinder and turn it on all by yourself, make my smoothie for me, carry heavy things into the house. It’s heartbreaking to see you realize your lack of strength or developing fine motor skills not live up to the vision you had in your imagination.
• I have noticed a little more about your developing personality and it’s very organizational. You continue to want to put things back where they belong. I was trying to get you in the bath at Granny’s house and you refused to walk downstairs until all the Tupperware you were playing with had been returned to its proper drawer. I also caught you putting your sunglasses away and as you placed them on your bookshelf, you took the time to fold down the parts that go over your ears. I have never asked you to finish jobs like this or fold down your sunglasses so I can only imagine that this is just part of your nature. We’ll see how it continues to develop. Your Dad will appreciate this so much as I could use a lesson or two about putting things back where they go!































































































































































































































































































