So much has happened since the last time I wrote to you. The biggest change is how much you are moving. It amazes me. I thought you were moving a lot before but little did I know you were capable of a great deal more! You are so busy stretching, kicking, and flipping around…funny enough, sometimes it actually makes me feel a little sea sick. Similar to that feeling one gets when just about to drop down on a roller coaster! You are still the busiest when I am trying to go to sleep and while I love to sleep, I love this time with you more. It’s our time to connect and feeling you jostle and squirm inside me is unreal… so much better than sleep.

Sleep is something that makes me laugh these days… it has been changing… I am up every two or three hours, every night. I am told this is nature’s way of preparing me for your arrival and I welcome it.  I am surprised at how little my new life with no sleep bothers me. I love sleep and before you came along was very possessive of my uninterrupted 8 hours. Now though, my lack of sleep feels like a rite of passage on my way to motherhood and I take pride in my yawns. I have welcomed my new sleepy eyed look at the world the same way I used to rejoice in sore muscles. It’s the result of hard work and that makes me happy. It’s the result of a growing selflessness and that makes me happy too. God knows I need it. So many aspects of me have been put on the backburner and to be honest, it’s refreshing. Less makeup, less desire to look a certain way, or feel a certain way, so much more perspective…. hopefully this new me continues to develop and grow as you do. Thanks to you,  I feel myself embracing a more natural take on life from all angles.

We are eagerly awaiting your arrival. The desire to see you, kiss you, and love you (in person) is very strong but I am also trying to remind myself that I need to cherish this special time of anticipation. Living in the moment is very challenging for me. But I am working on it…

I think our new Doula and birth program will help me with this. I am actively working on clearing the fear I have of any pain or harm coming to you during delivery, focusing on maintaining positive energy, eating well, and still getting lots of exercise. It must be working because life is in fact slowing down a bit.

The ability to slow things down is probably helped by the fact that your Daddy and I are in Maui. I am deliriously happy every second here…this place holds special memories for us and reminds me of great times spent with the people we love. You’ll be here too, right around your first birthday, and I am excited to share this special place with you. Your Daddy and I have been walking a great deal, talking about you, and looking at the whales. We have been surfing and believe it or not, you and I caught a wave on the paddleboard! Tomorrow your Daddy is going surfing on the north shore to take advantage of the big swell coming in. You and I will watch and take pictures from the shore. We’ve been snorkeling too!

I wish we could stay here and remain this happy and calm until your arrival, it’s just so perfect. Unfortunately though, we have to go back. We have 3 more weeks to finish at school and then we will try to create this same happy, calm environment at home in the last six weeks before your arrival. We have a lot of work to do but I am hoping I can bring Maui home with us so the peace of the island can get us through the next big slog.

I am dying to meet you but please take your time… we want you to come out fully cooked! Keep growing, work on those fat rolls, listen to our voices, find your toes, wiggle around, and get lots of rest. We will be here to welcome you into our arms and into your new life as soon as you are ready. We love you.

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